I bet I could make this blog really gay if I started everything with a mood.

So, I won't. That'd just be silly, anyway.

Anyhoo, I've been thinking about a bunch of random shit, y'know how that works. You realize stuff and all the good shit.

Fuck it. Anyway. New drummer in my band. Not easy on the eyes, but, on the drums, holy shit. One practice, and I was filled with very lovely feelings. Like YAY and WOAH. Cause those are feelings.

On top of that, my cocky guitarist air seems to be returning at long last, and, coupled with cocky lead vocalist attitude, everyone's favorite asshole bandie is back.

AND, on top of that, I've been hitting it off with this chick really well, but circumstance is fucking with me. I'll kick its ass though.

Speaking of chicks, I've been thinking a lot about my past relationship, and how it was. At first I thought it was this great thing I was losing, but, looking back, it made me into this fucking wreck. I found myself completely depending on and wanting her and only her, which really fucked with me a lot. I'd feel guilt about hanging out with people who weren't her, and found myself trying to change parts of who I am in order to please her.

Well, fuck that.

It took me a month to pull myself back on my feet. And, well, I'm not gonna fucking lose who I am again for some chick. That's just kinda lame, y'know? Maybe things'll pan out right this time, and I'll be appreciated for the cocky asshole I am.

THIS BLOG IS LONG

I'm so fucking hopped up on caffeine right now. Only got like half an hour of sleep last night, cause my sleeping system's been fucked. When I'm tired, I can't sleep, and when I do sleep, it's for a couple hours, regardless of what day or time it is. Better fucking fix itself.

Anyway, caffeine. Coffee, mixed with 3 cups worth of instant coffe, with Thai, or Chai, or whatever the fuck it's called tea. Then some hot chocolate. I'm hopped the fuck up and it's kinda cool, but I can feel the crash starting, which really blows.

Now I've gotta pass half an hour so I can go over to Andy's and play Brawl. lawls.